Ooh, Pretty!

I got a dress.

This is strange in itself since I have never liked dresses. I’m not girly at all so it’s sort of weird to have gotten a dress willingly. But I do have a reason. It isn’t really for a celebration, more as a motivation.

So, I am 4’10” roughly at age 16 (YEAH…) and I weigh like around 130 lbs. So that isn’t good at all. Looking at it in a health related way, I am for sure overweight and this needs to change. I’ve put it off time and time again and I’ve realized that I really need to go through with it. That’s when I came up with my borderline genius plan.

It isn’t really a plan at all. In fact, it’s just going to be the very end of the whole process. I bought a dress that is in a size too small. My goal size. That size is a 5. I was going to go for a 3 but I need to give myself a super realistic goal right now. When I get to that point I will judge for myself what to do next, like if I am all done losing it and ready to start maintaining it or if I should lose a little more. I do not need to be skinny. I want to be a healthy weight. That means I need to lose about 20 lbs. That’s actually not that much considering some people have it a lot worse and need to lose in the upwards of like 60 lbs to be a healthy weight. Only in America!

So this dress is really pretty in my opinion. It’s not super fancy but it’s certainly nice.

Speechless Paisley Bubble Dress - Kohl's

I think it’s cool, anyway. So since I got it in a 5 instead of my size right now (9), I have to lose the weight to wear it. Yahoo! I needed some motivation, so here it is. It’s really the only thing I could think of.

I am not going to start this whole process until it arrives. Tomorrow is my brother’s birthday party so you better believe that I am gonna be eatin’ dat cake.

This is also why I really want to get a dog. With dogs, you have to take them out for walks every single day so that will FORCE me to get some in everyday. Of course, that’s not all I’ll do. At my apartments, we have a fitness center so I can go there, too. No need to pay for a gym membership. I’ll mostly be doing running on the treadmill and…doing whatever it is that you do on ellipticals. I MIGHT do some sit-ups since I have an app on my iPod that is supposed to train you until you are able to to 200 sit-ups. That will be a really helpful aid I think. I’m not really going to lift weights because muscle definition is not my goal right now. It might become a goal later, but once I get to a healthy weight.

This isn’t really about vanity, by the way. A little is, I’ll admit but I want to be healthy and eat things that are good for me and make my body be all, “YAY! I feel awesome!”

Kohl’s has some kickass things by the way. They have like hundreds of dresses, first of all. They just rock. I had to go there to buy a “nice shirt” which for me translates to a button down shirt with a cardigan. LOL.

Anyways, I think this “losing weight” situation is going to be my new project besides getting a dog. You see, I have many projects. (Nose Piercing : COMPLETE) I think I’ll try to update this blog once a week as soon as I start this exercise/diet thing. Who knows, maybe it’ll help someone else with their goal!


I Want A Dog!

I really, really do. I have since we had to give our dog away years ago because my dad was frustrated with him and he didn’t get enough attention. His name was Darby. He was a Black Labrador Retriever. He was so great. We used to lay our heads on his belly when he was sprawled out on the floor. We called the “Puppy Pillow”. Well, he was way too big for me, I was just barely taller than him when we had him. I was sort of scared of him because he was a young dog and he didn’t really know to be extra gentle with a little tyke like me. He would just jump all over me and whip me with his Tail of Doom. He didn’t mean to hurt me, but I just couldn’t be around much to play. We had another dog for a while at the same time, too. His name was Chief. We all SWEAR that he had some sort of mental retardation. Well, he ate an electric toothbrush so…. He was a sweetheart though. I felt so bad because my dad was not nice to him, he always got pissed because one of his ears stood up and the other flopped down. He was a German Shepherd.

Well, it’s been so long! Around 8 years since I had a dog, and I have to say that I miss it. With the little contact I had with these guys, I loved them so much. I weeped when we gave them away. So here we are, approximately 8 years later and I sense that there’s something missing. I have one pet cat, Roxanne, but I really don’t care for cats. I don’t mind if they’re someone else’s at someone else’s house, I just don’t want to own any. I feel like they don’t offer anything. They need a litter box, they won’t listen, you can’t really play without being threatened with a nasty scratch or bite that kills a lot of people per year by the way. They just kind of suck. But dogs are a whole different animal. *Buh dum tss* They will play games with you like fetch of tug of war, they go to the bathroom outside, you can teach them tricks, you can tell them what to do and they listen (well-behaved ones, anyway), and they are extremely loyal and committed to their family. What more can you ask for?

I’ve tried to ask my mom to let me get a dog before but I was never persistent so she didn’t take me seriously. About a year ago, she got all excited about dogs and started looking for them. I quickly jumped on it and took over the research of adoptable pets in the area. I showed her like 10 very good options but she never took it any further. Then I was supposed to write a persuasive essay for school and I gave my mother three different options. She chose the topic of “Let Me Get A Dog”. She still made no further comment. I thought if I brought it up again, she’d think I was pestering her and I didn’t want to push her over the edge and appear immature.

So now it begins again. I did research all week long for dogs and I found one that I absolutely LOVE. I brought it up to her just today and I said, “I found a dog that I think we should adopt from a shelter. :)” She tried to deflect but I grasped on harder and she’ll have no choice but to give me a straight answer. No reply yet, she is probably asleep already or trying to get my sister to sleep. It’s doubtful she’ll answer me tonight but she sure as hell better tomorrow or I’m bringing it up myself again. She won’t be able to slip through this time!

My plan is to just play it simple. I have a particular strategy for this: make it easier for her to say yes than no. I’m hella good at getting people to do things a certain way so I hope it works out. I’m going to present my essay to her for the first time tomorrow. These are thoughts I wrote a year ago and they haven’t changed in the slightest so I do believe there’s some weight behind it. It will show her that my feelings haven’t changed and this is still a very real desire for me.

She isn’t too worried about my young 3 year old sister getting attacked. My grandma’s dog who is the most violent creature on this planet is even sweet on her, so no convincing needed there. The kind of dog I want doesn’t really shed so hairs everywhere isn’t an issue either. We just got rid of one cat so I think the expenses won’t differ too greatly. She’s told me before that money isn’t an issue. I’m starting to think that the may become a reality. Then again, that’s what I believed a year ago, and several times prior to that.

Deep down I know she wants to say yes. I just need to work for it.

Nose Piercing Update

For those of you who care, I’ve had my nose pierced for three weeks now! It’s been quite an adventure so far.

So to begin, when my mom picked me up the Sunday I had it pierced, my dad then suddenly said that if it gets infected, it’s gone. No exceptions. So that freaked me out a little bit because I normally have the worst possibility happen to me with situations like these. So I was like, damn. I don’t want to take it out! I like it a lot! So I have to clean it every 4-5 hours for 3-5 more weeks. I’m starting to get really lenient about this. Like today I only washed it once. BAD CALLAHAN! It’s not getting infected, though. That’s a good sign. And I’ll admit that I keep touching it to make sure it’s not sticking out. I’m trying to stop doing that because that’s so nasty. If you didn’t read the last post about this, Craig my piercer told me that the bacteria under your nails or on your fingers is equivalent to an infection in your butthole. Since he told me this, hand sanitizer has become my best friend.

In about 5 weeks, I can take it out and exchange it if I want. I don’t know if I will. I might just take it out so I can see how it goes back in. Nose piercings close up extremely quick so I’ll have to do it in a timely fashion. Pshh, I’m up for a challenge. It might bleed when I do it though. It’s fine though. I’m not afraid of blood. I just don’t like pain much. Who does, besides masochists? That’s some weird shit, by the way.

I’m having a small problem with the jewelry though. The part that’s inside my nostril keeps like flipping around and sometimes come out the bottom and you can see it. It’s very annoying. I think it’s slightly too big. Or too small. I have no idea.

Anyways, things have been running smoothly. Once I thought it was getting infected because there was a bit of liquid coming out of the hole when I was cleaning it but it’s okay, nothing happened past that. I think it was just a little discharge. Nothing to fret about!

I did have the misfortune of being sick with it in the first week. It was less of a mess than I thought it would be. You blow you nose as normal. Then you clean it. You have to make sure the whole post is clean though, nothing stuck on it. Easy task.

It’s not as hard to take care of it as you might think. I’ve had no really big issues. I don’t see any in the future either. Well, that’s all for this update!

This is a photo of my nose piercing.

The Grammys!

What a show last night.

At first, I was a little pissed that we on the West Coast had to have a three hour delay before we could enjoy it. I mean, the Grammys were in OUT timezone! So we didn’t even get to watch Live. Pshh. Then when it finally started, I was kind of excited to see LL Cool J as the host. Mom kept bitching about how dumb his hat was, but I didn’t find it terrible. LL Cool J was announcing all the performers for the night, forgetting only Chris Brown. Good, Chris Brown is a total ass.

I started to get really happy when Bruno Mars began. He was in this cute gold suit with a pompadour. Him and the whole band were matching and kept doing these super fly moves. My mother sure enjoyed it! It was very old school and I really like that this is sort of his thing.

How cute!

Then that no-talent asshole Chris Brown came on and did some bizarre…skipping? Strange. Oh yeah, and it was all on these cubes. Well I don’t even know what to say about that. It just sucked SO HARD.


I don’t really remember the order of the performances, so I’ll just be going all over the place with that. In between these Adele won some awards of course. No shocker there. I was really excited to see The Foo Fighters perform. I have an enormous soft spot for Dave Grohl. He was the drummer in Nirvana as you probably already know, and he is so talented. He actually performed twice and won an award! So proud! I think the BEST part of the awards was his acceptance speech.


It was really funny because right after this they were talking about how later he was performing with Deadmau5 and David Guetta. Well, those are people who do their “music” entirely with computers. I think he hated them, really. But Dave Grohl is a good sport. 🙂

After that, Rihanna and Coldplay performed together in this weird psychedelic lighting and it wasn’t that great of a song, honestly. I’ve grown tired of Rihanna. I really like Coldplay but those are just two different music styles that shouldn’t ever go together. I was surprised to see that Chris Martin was not wearing that jacket of his!


How trippy that seems.

I don’t really know what to say about Katy Perry’s performance. I thought it was lame. They tried to trick everyone into thinking this other girl was Katy in this strange getup, but then it turns out it wasn’t ACTUALLY her, it was some random broad. And she had strange crinkled blue hair and it was not good. Not good. Dismal, even.


We had Sir Paul McCartney perform, of course. He sang some new song of his called My Valentine. It was kind of weird. Not his best, that’s for sure. I liked seeing him there though. He looks very friendly. I remember he was cheering on Adele as she received 6 awards. That must be great for her to get all the respect from him!

He's a lefty, just like me!

And then there must be something said about Nicki Minaj’s monstrosity of a show. It was supposed to be this story of how Roman, which is this character she has, is getting exercised and it’s very dark and crazy. I didn’t know what to do with myself while watching it. I just wanted it to be over. I wasn’t sure if it was better to keep looking at the horror going on or stray my eyes away. It was just so dumb. She’s kind of a lunatic.

So, Roman is a demon? Or what?

Now came one of the best performances in my opinion. I saw Adam Levine (Maroon 5) getting ready to start, and then…Beach Boys music. HE. PERFORMED. A. BEACH. BOYS. SONG. I kind of have a crush on Adam Levine, and this just added to it. Plus he looked SO AWESOME in his formal clothes but with his tattoo arms. Aww yeeaaahhh. He was wonderful! I am so happy he was there!


This Beach Boys thing also included the remaining members and also Foster The People in addition to Maroon 5. When Foster The People started, my mom was like, “Who is that kid? Look at that guy, he’s a child! He looks deathly afraid. He looks like a deer in headlights. He’s such a baby!” I had to check how young Mark Foster really was because my mom was bugging me. I found out that he’s actually 28. Who knew?

He looks younger than 28, I'll give her that much.

Of course Adele performed Rolling in the Deep. Everyone loved her, she got a standing ovation, blah blah blah. I like her but I’m sick of her songs CONSTANTLY playing and taking over my radio stations, m’kay? But she looked genuine and honored. And she was very beautiful, too.

A strong voice, she has.

AND THEN. The last thing that happened was so rad. All these great guitarists (Bruce Springsteen, Paul McCartney, Dave Grohl, etc.) all jammed onstage. Bruce even broke a guitar string. It was like the best part. Dave Grohl can SHRED! I just loved it so much, I couldn’t wipe the smile off my face.

Right: Bruce Springsteen, Some Guy, Another Dude, Sir Paul McCartney, Dave Grohl RIPPING IT UP, Other Person

I actually forgot to mention this, but the first performance was Bruce Springsteen and my mother nearly shat herself out of excitement and sheer joy. I don’t get it. He’s pretty cool I guess but he was before my time. I have no clue why he is dubbed “The Boss”.

The Boss

I had a great time watching the Grammys. It was more about the performances than the awards to me. I sure am going to watch next year!

R.I.P. Whitney Houston


Oh, Facebook

We meet again.

A while back I realized just how annoying people act on Facebook. I was sick of it. But I just dealt with it, seeing no way out. But then it occurred to me that I didn’t HAVE to have an account. Sure, I wouldn’t be able to talk to a lot of people I went to school with last year, but who cares? We were never friends in real life so it wasn’t crucial that I knew you were baking cupcakes with your BFF. Most of my friends posted song lyrics daily, so it would not be missed.

This went on for a few months, me being totally out of the loop of things and going on with REAL life. I was actually quite happy about not having it anymore. Less distractions, you know? But recently a friend I had two years ago went missing. I found out about a week late, since I didn’t have Facebook and that’s how everyone around me had found out. I went ahead and reactivated so I could get some information about it and to download the poster so I could send it to my mom. I made the mistake of not deactivating right away and people noticed my online. Soooo I made a status about how it was back on temporarily. And now I have a little bit of a problem.

I’m stuck.

I want to keep posting and talking and liking and commenting, but I was pretty happy without Facebook for those few months. I don’t know whether to keep it or not.

It just occurred to me how very “Teenage Problems” this is. Who gives a damn if I have a Facebook or not? Only me, so what’s the big deal? I’m so lame.